These days - busy, tired,...grumble,grumble.

Long time no see!

Nowadays I'm really busy. Well it seems that I keep on saying "Imbuzy" whenever I wrote new post but cannot help it.

Participating in 4 projects : among them 2 as a project leader. no close relation with my major so need to study from the bottom. well I do not want to be envolved but it's impossible; my professor pays the fee for me so I cannot protest against him. Money is always the most simple and untimate reason.
Taking two courses(forecasting and DE/LE analysis) : two hard courses for graduates. especially because each course requires to submit one homework per week, and after submit homework #5 I was totally devastated recognizing there are still 10x2=20 homeworks remained for this semester. the average time for finishing one homework? ...about 15 hours, I guess. (I need three nights to finish one.)
Secretrial works for my professor : making ppts, writing drafts for magazines, preparing speeches... neverending, boring and really time-consuming.

Average sleep hours has been gradually diminished and finally became less than 4 hour. But what I cannot endure is that I am not actually busy with doing my original duty-study. Even though I was wandering aimlessly in this well-made-up swamp of the graduates for several months, maybe more than an year, I keep trying to find what I want to study and finally I made a direction in the very last summer. And then all those project-money-related works came. Now I have no time to do what I really want to do.
Well someone might say : "then you should concentrate on your work and finish them, and after that you can have your time." Yes it's right. I know. But I cannot do that. That's the problem. Cuz I'm a girl of no use and low ability.

So what am I? an laboratory worker & secratery who earns money to pay the tuition fees of the laboratory students?

Now time to back to work. I know the Olympics season has started but... Well, giving up all hope of watching the grand prix series in live. I definitely need sleep.

ETA.
And what? Patrick withdraws? Oh my... this fall becomes crueler and crueler. Best wishes for him. Oh my........ cannot believe!!!!!! he was my only hope for the remaining 3 monthes of year 2009. Why this thing happen to him? I feel myself worthless; I cannot do anytning for him, just hoping his fast recovery...